My name is Nancy and this is my blog. My life has been one struggle after another and so I decided my calling in life is to share my experiences and hopefully help those who are going through similar issues. I also want to share some interesting things that have happened in my life that’s changed my world.

Why did I name my domain ‘crackingsilence’ you ask? I’ve always been the silent one in my family. I sat in the background. I tried not to cause trouble; stayed to myself and never voiced my opinion (mostly because no one ever asked me to.) So now I’m breaking that silence. I’m spilling it all out there for the entire world to see…so….

Have you ever been in a bad marriage? What about a divorce that could become a John Grissom novel? No? Well, what about depression, or having a handicapped child? Ring any bells yet? Toying with suicide? Drinking?

I’ve been through all of it. And on top of all that, there’s a very special Someone who came into my life in 2002. He has come to me in my dreams as though He were sitting right next to me. He lifts me up. He scolds me (but with a lot of compassion). He has also told me things about the past, present and future. His name of course you know is Jesus. Don’t call me crazy yet. It is obviously a HUGE occurrence in my life and I want to share what He has told me and my husband about the world and specific people.

So, I will start this post by telling you something about Jesus. He’s kind, loving, fierce, jealous and very, very real. He is alive and is in heaven, but he is also everywhere here on earth. He watches most everything. He cannot allow his eyes to see evil, but at the same time knows of it and hates it. He knows the hearts of us all. He knows those who have a total black heart and those with partial black hearts. And kind of like our fictitious Santa, he knows who’s bad and who’s good. I’m sure everyone knows all that already if you’ve read the Bible. And there’s so, so much more to tell.

But let’s start at the beginning. When was that? Well, it starts in 1959. I was the fourth girl born into my family. I had 3 older sisters when I started out. I knew from a very young age that I was different. I never quite fit in. To start, I was always the little fat girl. I was always overweight.

So, at an early age I already had a struggle I would continue to have for my entire life; being overweight. Only once in my life did I get a handle on it and lost a bunch of weight. It was what allowed me to attract my first husband. It was also the start of another major struggle in my life; being married to the wrong man. It was a nightmare.

And that brings me to a very nasty divorce. Another struggle that lasted for years!!! I’m so glad it’s over now, but when I was going through it, well, let’s just say I never cried so much or hated so much in my life.

One more thing I wanted to say is that I will not be using real names in this blog when discussing personal issues that involve others.

Whether you’re a male or female, we all have our troubles, but I would like to leave you with some encouraging words. Another day brings new mercies from heaven. Bank on the love God has for you. He WANTS you to succeed and be the good person you want to be. He is always here watching and routing for you. He does care.

Until my next post, God bless you.