I can’t begin to tell you how many times I’ve questioned what on earth I am doing on this earth. What are we all supposed to be doing? Are we just supposed to grow up and become a doctor, teacher, programmer, clerical worker, or whatever? What then? Do we just fill some shoes for a while and then retire and wait to die?

Well, if that’s not boring I don’t know what is. I think often times I get stuck in a rut of doing the same thing every day. I get up, go to work, come home, watch some tv, and go to bed. I repeat that process five times during the week and then the weekend comes. I’m not sure about others, but I get in a rut on the weekends too.

I’m just not seeing the purpose of it all. Or at least I wasn’t for many years. I’ve read the Bible and I love God, but even with that I found it difficult to know what my true purpose was. It wasn’t until this very same month back in 2002 that Jesus started speaking to me in my dreams, or I should say, while I slept.

I know. Call me crazy. But really, if Jesus spoke to you wouldn’t you listen? And one step further, wouldn’t you want to know what He has to say? I sure do. Well, with all this boredom in the routine of ‘life,’ I asked Jesus what my purpose was. Know what He said? To love those around me AND to love myself (and Him too, of course.)

Is that it? That’s all there is to purpose? I thought at the time this couldn’t be all there was. But, as it turns out, it’s certainly a much harder calling than I had anticipated. Loving others is… well… hard!! Caring about others and sharing with others use to come easy for me. But now, I’m rather selfish at best and find it difficult to be responsible for anyone other than myself. I blame most of my current habits on a bad marriage and a very ugly divorce which lasted longer than the marriage. Yes, that’s the truth. What a chore all that was. I will be writing about it in my next post.

But until my next post, suffice it to say, I think if we were all honest with ourselves, it’s at least a little hard for all of us to love others. It takes practice and a lot of prayer, in my opinion. I believe it’s God’s calling for all of us to love others as we would love ourselves. So, stay true to those you love and, well, those you’re trying to love. I’m sure God is pleased with all of our efforts to be like Him.

Until my next post, God bless you.